Let Go and Press Forward.

Oftentimes, we keep on looking back at the things which bother us the most. It’s always hard for us to go on with our lives doing our best to walk along the way to success without the fear of failing. These things serve as hindrance towards the road of success. It’s hard to reach your goal if your heart is full of doubts, issues, or anything which makes you have a heavy feeling. Try to cleanse yourself and forget all the negativity. If you never learn to throw all those burdens, it would be hard for you to see the bright side of what’s waiting ahead of you. Try to focus on the things that you want to get instead of wasting your time thinking of the possibilities that you won’t be able to fulfill your dreams.

A big difference can start in the small things you make.

We always want to make a difference in this world. Usually, we focus too much on the difference that we want to make that we tend to forget that achieving big things won’t happen overnight. It’s a step by step process wherein you need to start with small things in order to fulfill the whole goal. It could be actually compared to a puzzle wherein every small piece is important to form a beautiful picture. We need to exert small efforts. Take it slowly. Every little thing that you do gives a great contribution in fulfilling your dream. Every small part makes a difference.

It's hard to choose between two things that you really wanted in your life.

Most of the time, you would do everything to keep both things in your life. You can't afford to lose the other. If possible, you'd try to keep them both no matter how hard and self-destructing it is. However, a point would come wherein you have to make a stand. You need to give your full attention to the other to be successful in it and lose grasp for the mean time on the other essential thing in your life. It's hard to sacrifice something for the sake of getting the other. However, that seems to be the only choice that you have in order to make things better. You have to loosen the hold that you give to the other in order to fully prioritize the other.

Honestly, I am having a hard time in choosing 'cos I want both in my life. It's very challenging for me to apply this but I guess I have to. :(

We have different ways of coping up with our problems.

Usually, most of us would find people whom we could talk to and ask for advice on what to do next. However, there are times that you wanted to be alone ‘cos you can’t think of anything. You are clueless of everything. You’re just not in the mood to talk with anyone. All you wanted is to be alone.

There are even times that all you wanted to do is to sleep. Why? Simply because that’s the solution you have to avoid thinking too much. However, sleeping is not easy all the time. A lot of things occupy your mind which avoids you to do so. That’s the time when you start to think over things again. You start reflecting of everything and you try to imagine all the things that you want to happen. Scenarios are being created. Emotions would come all over you. You could cry if you want to. It is not bad to burst all your emotions. Somehow, it could make you feel so much better.

Problems come and go. All of us have our own way of reacting to them. Just always remember that no matter what, you’d be able to surpass them.

I actually like people who would exert an effort to be there for you.

Who doesn't right?

People would talk to you and all. But not everyone would be willing to make you feel important. I never wanted to be treated like a queen. However, it feels good if someone would be willing to give you time and effort. It somehow makes you feel that you have a worth in this world.

It is not my dream to be the girl whom you would give everything. But I would certainly appreciate it if one day there would be a person who would try to do his best to make me happy. He may not give me everything I wanted. Knowing that he's exerting his best effort to make me feel that I am special and worthy of his attention would be enough for me to feel like I am the luckiest person in the world.

We are lucky that we have friends who stay true to us 'til the end of time.

Don't you love it when there's a person who cares for you more than what you have expected? It's a nice feeling knowing that there is a person around you who:

• Notices you when you are not okay because he/she knows you that much
• Brings you food 'cos you haven't taken your lunch
• Spends a lot of time with you despite his/her busy schedule
• Helps you with a lot of things
• Scolds you for all the wrong things
• Gets mad at you but won't leave you
• Worries when you are acting differently
• Accepts your flaws
• Sticks with you despite your worst attitude
• Stay by your side no matter what

Let us admit the fact that our friends bring spice into our lives. They are the ones whom we do stupid things with without looking stupid at all. Treasure them 'cos not everyone is given a chance to find a true friend.

We would often look forward for sweet actions and messages which make our hearts melt.

In reality, all those sweet thoughts and efforts are nothing if the person giving it to you does not have an impact in your life at all. Yeah, it could put a smile on your face. However, its effect won’t last that long.

Let us face reality. Others might find certain things cheesy enough to make a pinch in your heart. However, it would only affect you and make your whole day if it is from someone special, someone who doesn’t even need to do much to make you smile.

Isn’t it funny that you keep on having list of things which you wish someone would do for you yet those are nothing if the person exerting effort in fulfilling that list isn’t special enough? Sometimes, you are just waiting for that one person who will totally trash out your list of things ‘cos simply having that person by your side already makes you perfectly happy.

Whatever makes you feel bad, leave it. Whatever makes you smile, keep it.

That's one quote that I have seen in the internet. It seems easy to understand right? But what if that one thing makes you feel bad and smile at the same time? What are you going to do?

It is really hard to choose especially when that one thing makes you smile more than anything else. Yeah, it gives you pain most of the time. But you have to admit that the happiness that it gives you encompasses all the sadness that you have felt.

Your mind could be certain on what to do but your heart keeps on confusing you. Your heart seems to prevent you from following your mind. There's this force which keeps on pushing and pulling you back and forth which makes you feel confused even more.

It is really hard to make a choice especially if you know that none of the choices would make you happy at all. You keep on thinking but you end up with nothing.

It is possible that you are the one who decided to leave yet you are the one who keeps on missing things so much. It’s not that the feelings are gone. It’s just that you have to do the right thing because there seems to be no future for the both of you anymore. The issues are just piling up as you stay longer. Sometimes, love is not enough for two people to continue what they have. Waking up everyday without having the things the both of you used to do is really hard to go through. However, you have to face reality. No matter how much the two of you invested in whatever kind of relationship that you have, there is a need to let go.

I am the type of person who is impatient when it comes to texting.

I am a very demanding person. I hate it when a person takes more than three minutes to reply especially when he is important to me. I am just used to getting replies instantly. Replying longer than usual makes me think that the person is not prioritizing me. I know it is too much but that defines who I am.

I obligate the person to inform me when he would be busy doing things so that I won’t wait. There are a lot of times that I’d flood the person just because he was not able to respond in a span of five minutes.

I seem crazy right? It’s hard for me to change this attitude eventhough I know that I have to.

20th Birthday

• My friend Erika already informed me beforehand that we have to meet at 9am on Feb. 3, 2012. At first, I hesitated because I have an exam in the afternoon. However, I agreed and told her that I'll go to school around 9:30am.
  
• At 12 midnight, I find it weird that my closest friends didn't greet me. I was like "Okay."
  
• On the day itself, I texted Erika that I might be late 'cos of traffic. She told me to take my time since she is still printing her receipt to claim her grad pic. She told me that Joyce is not replying to her texts so she might be late as well 'cos she might have been still sleeping at that time.
  
• When I was already near school, she called me to go straightly to HalfTime to have lunch. Saw nobody then I called her. She came to me after a few minutes then went inside the restaurant to wait for Joyce.
  
• She asked for my kikay kit. I was busy looking it in my bag that I didn't notice anything. She opened it and noticed that I am using a new lip gloss. We were talking about a lot of things when suddenly I could hear people singing Happy birthday song behind me. I was surprised because around ten of my friends were there. Considering that we are going to have our quiz in the afternoon, they still came. I was really touched with the effort that they exerted. They gave me flowers and cake.
  
• Had dinner with my family after my class.
  

I guess this is the best surprise ever. I get surprises every year but this is the biggest that they've made. It's the first time that I never expected anything. It's really touching when people close to your heart exert effort in making your day special. You thought that nothing would happen, but they did their best to give you the best birthday ever and made it memorable.

Pictures on my fb album . Too lazy to put pictures here. Haha.

Trust me whenever I say that I'll be there for you.

Whenever you hear those words, always remember that I mean it. I did not say it just to make you feel better. I uttered those words because that’s what my heart wanted me to do. Chances are I’ll stick to it ‘til the end.

I will try to stop whatever I am doing just to help you whenever you have a problem. Maybe that could signify how important you are and how much I am willing to comfort you all the time. I will do my best not just to witness all your ups and downs but to be with you doing whatever I can during those moments in your life.

Things might happen. Let’s be open to the possibility that we might grow apart from each other due to some circumstances. Despite that, always remember that I will be there for you no matter what. I might look as if I don’t care. But in reality,once I cared for you, I always will. Just get my attention and I assure you that I’ll be there.

Pain

I guess everyone of us have felt pain once in our lives. Sometimes, we feel as if we can’t get over it. The pain that we feel makes our lives miserable. It becomes hard for us to go up and move forward from the mistakes that we have made.

I've experienced pain a lot of times in my life. There were times that I felt like giving up. Whenever I think of it, I ask myself why I allowed it to affect my life so much. I would often think of the things that happened and I could not let go. I tried to reflect but nothing seems to change.

One thing I learned from my experience is to let go of the painful events that happened to me. Acceptance is the key. Always remember that there are a lot of people around you who are more than willing to help you. You just forgot to open your eyes and see that they exist. After some time, you’d be happy for sure.

We are responsible for our feelings.

Everyday, I try to write a quote of my own in my planner. It's either that's what I feel or that's what I learned for the day from the people whom I spend my day with.

I believe that there are times that people would regret the chances that they give to people especially if these chances are not given importance. They feel like they are taken for granted for the mere reason that they can't help removing the possibility that good things would prosper. When things don't happen according to what they planned, they would think that things might be better if they could undo what they have given.

A professor told us that we are the ones responsible for our feelings. I think that's the reason why I've written that second quote last night. There are instances that people would harm us without them even knowing. For an instance, you might have a gum stuck in your hair because you leaned on the wall. That person never knew that your day was ruined just because of that gum. He spent his day right without even thinking about you while you kept on thinking of the person who left that gum on the wall. You wasted your whole day thinking of things that don't even matter to other people.

Everything depends on how would you react to situations. It is difficult not to get affected but it is possible. Through time, we would be able to learn how to ignore bad things and just go on with our life and be productive prioritizing more important things.

I have a poor handwriting and I know it.

Chances

All of us are given chances in life. We might already have that chance to be happy and successful in life. However, it would still depend on us on how to use those chances.

More often than not, we always lose our chance because we would always think that there would still be next time. It’s hard for us to make the right choice right now because of different factors that bother us. We tend to forget that not all opportunities could knock our door twice. There are times that when you lose those chances, all you could do is regret because no matter how much you chase it, it won’t come back.

It is so painful to realize what you really wanted when everything has already passed by. It hurts knowing that you lose grasp of the thing you really wanted. We are always allowed to have a mistake in making decisions. It is so painful that you would even do anything just to go back to a certain time and change your actions.

The moment you realize everything, it’s already too late. You lose the most precious thing you wanted. All you could do is cry and feel sorry for yourself.

Next time, try to be careful of your actions and think carefully. For sure, you would never want to lose another chance again.

Making a decision is different from making a choice.

In making a decision, you consider the pros and cons. After analyzing everything, you would be able to come up into a decision.

In making a choice, you know the pros and cons. However, you still do what you wanna do. You disregard everything.

Started the year 2012 right.

I was not able to make a blog post on the first day of the year 'cos I was too busy. I could say that the first two days of the year were great.

On Dec. 31 , we went to Tomas Morato to visit the stall of my cousin who was selling Dragon Fireworks. After that, we went straight back to our home while waiting for the clock to strike midnight. We could see all the colorful fireworks at the sky. When it turned 12 mn, I and my sister jumped hoping that we could still grow taller. We also had coins in our pockets and we had paper bills taped on our blouses (the idea was suggested by my sis). We kissed our parents and had our media noche.



On Jan. 1, we went to my Uncle's house. It has been a tradition to have a family reunion during lunch. Stayed there for almost four hours. It was nice to see everyone and to bond with them. I was not able to take pictures with them. Instead, I took solo pictures of myself. It seems like I started the year being vain.



I was also bored so I took some pictures of the flowers of the bouquet I saw at the room of my grandma.



Today, January 2, we went to Greenbelt. I was able to buy a cardigan. Also, I asked my dad to buy me a Belle De Jour Planner. I used one last year and decided to use the same planner for this year. I am kinda excited to use it.



We ate at Causeway Banawe for dinner. I was able to take pictures of my fave dimsum (Crabroe siomai, Chicken Feet, and Seafood Roll)



I could feel that I'll have a great year. This is just the start of 2012 and I am satisfied with the days that has passed.