Things to remember for 2012.

• Do my best in my academics. It’s a new term for us. Hopefully, it would be my last term. I need to get at least 83 % or 2.0 in all my subjects in order to graduate. Hopefully, I could avoid cramming in order to get good grades. This should my last term so there’s a need for me to exert a lot of effort to make my parents proud.
• Be a better daughter. There are times that I would argue with my parents. I know it’s bad to answer them back but sometimes I can’t avoid it. I guess I should learn to be a good daughter in their eyes.
• Spend more time with my family.
• Time management.
• Don’t be too dramatic over things. I should be happy with things that I already have. There might be things which brought me pain but I guess it’s time to be happy this year.
• Diet. February is approaching. I wanted to look beautiful on my birthday. Also, I am going to be a bridesmaid of my cousin on October. She told me that I should stop eating. Haha. This should serve as a motivation.
• Save money. I find it hard to save money eventhough I have more than enough allowance. I guess I should try to eat lunch at cheaper restaurants/foodchains. Not eating lunch could be a good idea.

For now, these are the only things I could think of. Will update this blogpost when I could think of other things.

Heart Vs Mind

People would say that we should always listen to our heart. According to them, as long as it makes you happy and your heart approves your decision, then go for it.

What if our heart is just fooling us?

There are times that we get confused on which to follow. We would even ask ourselves the question Am I going to listen to my mind which tells me the right thing? Or should I listen to my heart which makes me happy?

It’s quite hard when these two are trying to defend themselves against each other. Your mind tells you what to do but your heart never listens. However, it’s still a matter of choice. Eventhough we would want to stop the hurting, our heart seems to be a masochist which makes you do things that prolongs the suffering.

I guess one must have the strong urge to fight his heart. One of the greatest challenges in life is to ignore your heart and let your mind win.

Always remember that listening to your heart is not safe all the time. Use your mind. It might hurt at first but it would make the situation better in the end.

Christmas 2011.

Since Christmas is the birth date of Jesus Christ, I would dedicate this post to Him. Most of the time, people tend to forget Him during this special day. We keep on thinking about the gifts that we would receive, the food that we are about to eat, and our loved ones whom we would give our greetings to.

I have nothing more to ask for this Christmas. I could say that I didn't receive a lot of material things. However, I was able to receive the best immaterial gifts I could ever have. I would like to thank him for a lot of things.

• My Family 

Thank you for giving me a loving and supporting family. I am contented with the kind of family I belong to. I am lucky to have them in my life. Despite all the mistakes I've done, they are still there beside me. They never gave up on me. This holiday season won't be complete without them.

• Friends

It is easy to make friends but it is hard to find those people who would stay beside you through hard times. They are the ones who laughed with me throughtout the good times and they never left me during those times that I needed them the most. There were times that I feel like giving up. Yet, they never failed to scold me and keep me going. Thank you. Without them, life won't be as happy as it is right now.

• Academics

I've been praying everyday to get the grades that I needed. Sometimes, I feel hopeless. The fear of not passing all the subjects never left my mind and heart. I know I was not able to do my best but you made impossible things happen.

Lastly, thank you for making me strong to face all the challenges that I had this year. A lot of surprises occurred in my life. There were times that I thought I couldn't make it but because of You I were able to surpass all of these. God is great all the time.

Merry Christmas to everyone! Let us not forget to thank Him. Enjoy the holiday!

Christmas

Christmas is one of the most special holidays in the year. It is the time wherein we are too busy buying gifts for our loved ones. We would often make an effort in setting up decorations in our home to make it look beautiful. We are too excited to open the gifts that we received. We’ve been going to different parties to celebrate Christmas.

Students would have their Christmas vacation and it would give them enough time to rest and prepare for that special occasion. It is also the time that we spend much time with our family. Most would spend this day having Noche Buena with our family at home. Their mere presence are enough to make us feel happy and contented. Opening our gifts under the Christmas tree is just a bonus.

In addition, I believe that we must not forget the fact that it is a day that we must remember all the blessings that we received from Christ. There are a lot of things that happened in our life because of Him. It is okay to celebrate but let us try to have a short prayer thanking him for everything. After all, we are lucky that we still have all the time and resources to celebrate Christmas.

Advance Merry Christmas!

Don't underestimate yourself.

A person would often limit himself based on what he knows he can do. If there are other people who is better than him, he would not strive to beat them since he kept on believing that others would always be better and he could do nothing about that.

You have to correct that attitude. Overlooking one’s capacity is a norm due to contentment. One would be at ease with what he is continuously doing. As long as he is doing well, he feels fine with it. Try to explore on things that you could do and you might be surprised that you have extraordinary skills which you never tried to discover.

Don’t stop on improving. We need to continuously improve as life goes on.

Don't forget to love yourself.

Whenever we love, we would always forget to prioritize ourselves. We've been busy thinking of ways to be the best people for someone yet we forget to make ourselves better for our own sake. We kept on spending time thinking how to satisfy other people.

There are times that what we did are more than enough. However, we would always try to look for a solution whenever things won't work out. We think that we could give something more forgetting the fact that yourself is important too.

If things are not working anymore, try to love yourself. Learn when to stop. As long as you know that you gave your best, it's okay to choose another path and find the way to happiness. It's not bad to love too much but depriving love for yourself is not a good sign anymore.

Always remember that you have to take care of yourself. If you won't, who would? Other people could be concerned to you but only you could nourish yourself.

Tagaytay Escapade

Random lang napag-usapan if we wanted to go to Tagaytay this Christmas Vacation. I and a friend (Jed) were talking about our plans and he suddenly brought up Tagaytay. He immediately made an event page at facebook and we kept on changing dates since magkakaiba sched ng mga tao and the final date for this outing became Dec 16-17,2011.

11 kami (Me,Joyce, Yana, Jed, Stefen, Aikee, Donald, Jc, Huey, Emen, and Jeff) + 1 driver. We brought two cars (owned by Jed and Stefen). Rented house with a pool.

Ayan pagdating namin sa house picture kaagad. We went to the house to check in lang and to leave our things.

Had lunch at Leslie's. Maganda rin yung view sa may resto so we took a group pic na rin.

Went to a place (village wherein Stefen's grandma is a member). Sabi namin Stefen's name seems to have a power kasi banggitin lang yung name niya pinapasok na kami. Hahaha.

Kaming tatlo lang yung babae kaya may times na parang kami ang nagpictorial. :> We had a lot of pictures kasi sa cam ni Aikee.

We were busy thinking which pose to do. Gusto sana namin magform ng dlsu letters kaso hindi kaya.

Jumpshot. Medyo fail! Hahaha

Achievement kasi may picture si Stefen. Ayaw niya kasi nagpapasolopic eh.

Alternate formation raw.

For dinner, we bought 6 boxes of Shakey's Pizza, Buffalo Wings, and Mojos. Nagplay lang ng guitar yung iba then kumanta. Nagswim rin pala kami kaso I can't see a pic na complete kami sa pool.

The next day, most of us woke up late. We woke up to fix our things lang kasi we need to leave the place at 12nn. We had lunch at View Point.

Ayun. I enjoyed the trip. We were planning to have a next trip maybe sa summer. At least hindi fail yung plan namin kahit medyo wala kaming plan sa gagawin sa Tagaytay.

Don't love someone just because you want to be in a relationship.

 We must admit that the feeling of having someone special is different as compared to being single. Many would say that they would rather be committed to someone than to be alone in their life.

Why?

Simply because they love the feeling of being taken care of. And of course, being loved. It is nice to wake up everyday when you know that someone out there is waiting for you. It’s nice to hold the hands of someone while walking around the town, to hug someone when you wanna feel secured, and to kiss someone before you go home.

It has been a trend for people to look around to find a prospect love interest. What I mean is that people would usually want to be in a relationship right away for the mere reason that they want to be in a relationship. Some would feel sad because they want to have that someone in their life. It is natural. However, please do remember that being in a relationship for the sake of having one is shallow.

If you want to be in a relationship with a person, please make sure that you really love him or her and he is not just a cover up for your loneliness. Don’t use that person just to show the world that someone loves you. Take it seriously ‘cos love is not a joke.

Stubborn.

It is ironic that we keep on holding on to things which are not for us. Most of the time, it is hard to give up something which you wanted for a long time. It is stupid not to let go of something which does not benefit you at all. However, if you are the person who is in that situation, you don't even care if you look stupid because what's important for you is that you could do what you want.

Isn't it weird that we always ask for other people's advice and yet we keep on doing what we want? We are too stubborn to listen to what they are saying. We keep on asking eventhough we already know the answer. Instead of doing the right thing, we keep on doing things based on what we think we wanted to do.

All of us know the answer to our own questions. It's just that we need to bang our head so many times in order for us to fully accept things.

It's quite funny that one could give good advices to other people while one could not even help himself because of his stubbornness. I remember what I've read randomly written in a car two days ago. It says "Stubborn with the heart." All I could do was to smile.

I want my friends to feel that they are important to me.

I consider all my friends part of my life. For me, my life wouldn’t be this exciting if I haven’t met them. That may be the reason why I would always make a way to make them feel special and important.

I guess one way of showing them that they are important is that I keep on checking how they are. I would always try to find time to talk to them whenever I do not have anything to do. I might be annoying to some but I just want to let them know that I am always here for them whenever they need me.

I also try to share a lot of things about myself. Others might find this boring but this is my way of making them a part of my life. I want them to know what is happening to my daily life.

I am the type of person who won’t let my friends feel useless or out of place. I would always try to tell something so that there would be no dull moment.

I am not sure if this is the right way of being a friend. However, I believe that what’s important is the intention of being a true friend.

It’s easy to trust someone but it’s hard to make that trust last forever.

I must admit that it’s easy for me to trust people. It’s easy for me to open up to other people. I could easily tell someone everything about my life. I don’t know if this is a good thing. Some of my friends would say that I should not make my life an open book to everyone.

Lately, I am trying to be cautious on trusting people. I know that there are people who would be there for you because they have hidden intentions. I am not saying that everyone’s like that, but we must admit the fact that there are people who act that way.

My trust has been broken a lot of times. This did not became a reason for me not to trust anyone anymore. Instead, it served as a signal that I must first try to know someone fully before giving him my 100% trust. It’s hard to be disappointed when someone breaks the full trust that you’ve given to him.  It hurts to be taken for granted. Yeah, it’s easy for me to trust a person but once it got broken, it won’t turn back to its original state.  I believe that trust is like a glass. Once it’s broken, it won’t be in its original form no matter what you do.

Don’t take someone for granted. Trust is a vital ingredient for any relationship. Without trust, any relationship won’t work out. You must be lucky if someone actually trusts you fully. Don’t waste the trust that he is giving you. 

Without pain and suffering, there is no way of life.

Without pain, there would be no suffering, without suffering we would never learn from our mistakes. To make it right, pain and suffering is the key to all windows, without it, there is no way of life.

Every one of us is afraid to experience pain. There are times that all we could do is to cry it all. It's hard to suffer through all the sadness that we feel. It seems like it's the end of the world.

Experiencing pain has a good side. It teaches you lessons in life. It helps you understand that you won't be happy all the time. 

Remember the quote "Experience is the best teacher."? 

That's true. We won't be who we are right now without the experiences which made us strong. All of the experiences that we had, whether sad or happy, would bring us memories that we could look back into. They are the ones which formed our personality. One who had experienced almost every kind of emotion is a lot better than someone who has been happy all the time.

It's a must that one had been hurt in the past. That would teach him the essence of happiness.

Body Clock

Sleeping early in the morning, waking up late in the afternoon. 

I could say that there is something wrong with my body clock.

I guess most of my classmates know that I am a night person. I am the type of person who could stay up 'til 6am simply because I cannot sleep especially this term break.

It all started when I was in high school. There were tons of school works and 24 hours does not seem enough for me to finish all of them. I guess it was also partly my fault because I am a crammer. Since then, sleeping late was not an issue for me. College came. Sleeping late in the morning became normal for me. My body clock worsened when I reached fourth year. There were times wherein I would sleep around 3am considering that I have 8am class. I became used to it. I know it isn't the right thing but it seems like I can't get over that habit.

It's not good to have an image of being a vampire. Sleeping early doesn't seem a norm for me. People around me would even joke around to say that I am a vampire indeed. In fact, I have two friends who tried my sleeping habits. A friend who is a girl tried to gave me a curfew which was 2am. It worked for only two weeks. Another friend who is a guy made a deal with me wherein I need to sleep at 11:30pm everyday while he needs to do something in return (and that's a secret for now). It lasted for only two weeks because I have been too busy with my academics and sleeping early was not possible. All the efforts became worthless.

Time would come that I would learn to change my body clock. Sleeping early in the morning and waking up late in the afternoon isn't a good thing. It's hard to change this habit but I know it's possible. I just need to make an effort on it. Hopefully, I'd be able to sleep on time in the near future.